blogging on a weekday.
it could only mean one thing: i am at home.
home on a weekday.
it could only mean two things: i am not at work & i am sick.

bah.

my last update was last month. =)
sorry la. i've been very busy with work.
so i promise thisentry is going to be one long-ass entry!

lemme see.

2 weekends ago, i went KL with my family.
the only difference this time was that we didnt stay over at our relatives' place. instead we rented a service apartment in KL itself and it was the shite i tell you. and apparently its so effing cheap la, considering the location, size, etc.

i didnt take much picture of the apartment itself though. forgot. =\
so just make do with whatever picture i have which was taken at the very last minute before checking out. =P

pardon the messed up place. it was because the chambermaid was not in yet to make the bed, clear the apartment and stuff. =P

and this was also the time i got together with a few of my cousins whom i've not seen in years! didnt snap much photos though, except for one. =)

this is sufi, my 21 yr old cousin whom i last saw was during cik lia's engagement like 5yrs ago or so. =)

i had to miss the team's bbq chill out session due to the trip and i am very jealous because as seen on the pictures, they had loads of fun! i also want! =(

last weekend was also spent in KL but this time with the company.

my headache's back.
so i think i will just do updates on the KL trip with the company & of something unexpected that happened maybe later, ya!

toodles!

Labels: family, kay el, overdue, sick

i think i talk too much.
i think i think too much.

i want to go karaoke & eat at arnold's.
i want to play pool, i want to go bowling.
i want to have ice cream picnic, again.

how like that?

Labels: rambling, random thoughts

oooo. its a monday and i am blogging.
cool kan!

ok la.
basically i went to the office in the morning. went through the meetings and stuff.
yes, i was sick.
and i had the mother of all cramps i tell you.

even rena was asking me if i was ok.
because apparently, i looked pale. -_-
see, i hate it when i fall sick because it is so damn obvious! =(

the actual reason to why i was forcing myself to go to the office today was because of my trainee. haha.
but ended up she also didnt come because she is running a fever. haha.

so seeing my targets are up, i thought maybe i would start la.
start early, then towards the end of the week, whatever signups i get would be bonus for me, right?

but changed my mind because i vomitted whatever liquid i had in my tummy. haha.
ewww. gross.

so went to ica with sandra & edward to do my passport for the upcoming rally in kl this february.
have i ever mentioned how much i hate taking passport/ic photos? uurgghh!
collection will be this friday. yay!

saw zaihar along the way and apparently sandra knows him.
so dengan slamber nye, aku pun tanya, "you were from pasir ris npc for your ns, right?" and he was kinda shocked.
haha. i sound like a damn stalker la.
so i just said that, "ouh. i am fadzli's... ex.." which really stabbed me through the heart la because i nearly introduced myself as "fadzli's gf" which obviously i am not anymore la dengz!

so he wants to meet today. & today is the 18th. why today pun i dont know. out of all dates. not as if he remember the significance of the date anyway.
apparently he wants to clear his name. clear what name pun i dont know.
because according to him, i do not know the whole story about him & the girl. i only know part of it. whatever.

so, apparently the girl has been his friend. & there is only one girl whom i know who has been his friend. & this is also the same girl i PMed on FB once upon a time dulu who told me to work things out with fadzli & that it is a waste if our rship were to be over just like that.
so which mean, it is possible that he already had feelings for her even when he was with me, right? & the only obstacle he had for expressing his feelings for her at that point of time was because he was still attached to me. because you see, he has this "status" he has to uphold, ie. not being a timer.

but still, i felt like i've been cheated on.
because seriously,
its all too sudden, isnt it?
its barely a month since the break up.
& this is the same guy who apparently were so devastated over the break up, crying & such, telling me that if i ever leave him, there will be no other for him & that he will turn gay. -_-

omgwtfh.
i am so pissed la because all those years i believed when he said he is not a stmf, he turned out to be one. really.
so now all i want to do is to meet him, let him clear his name & get it over & done with.
because i have had enough of this shit.
& like how i've shared my short/mid/long term goal, that is not to fall in love with assholes anymore.

Labels: bitching, fadzli, rambling, random thoughts, relationship, work

wasnt working yesterday because i was down with a fever.
crap sia! wake up in the morning with such a bad migraine so had to message sandra and rena to inform them of my absence from office.
then, i realised that rena wont be in the office either so i should be messaging daniel instead. but by then, i was feeling too tired and sick to do that.
bah.

lesley woke me up from my slumber to ask if i was joining them for the vici team outing.
which i totally forgot about. omg. =(

feeling tad better, i did.
wrong move because after my nap, i felt my fever coming back. -_-"

reached cineleisure a lil late. sorry zaman!

the blind side was a very good movie.
i know i am sucha sucker for movies which are based on true stories.
but seriously, its a movie worth watching.
so many valuable lessons taught in the movie itself. just prep yourself tissues when watching it.
its the kind of movie i dont mind watching over and over again.

hang out for awhile outside cineleisure. snapping photos while some were busy inhaling nicotine into their lungs. haha!


dinner/supper was at bbq chicken after that with the team.
service super slow can!

there were talks of going karaoke after that.
but plans were changed afterwards due to lack of response. haha!
so shared a cab with mel & nezar. initial plan was to drop them off first but then we decided to drop by jalan kayu. =P

so through cups of tehs, we had conversations flowing.
about how long it took me to wake up & get out of a rship of 3yrs.
about how much i gave in just because i wanted to hang on to the rship & not fight for 3yrs.

truth be told,
no, i am not over the rship.
i cant possibly just forget about that 3yrs, even though it was not all rainbows & butterflies.
even so, i spent 3yrs of my life with someone whom i thought i will be spending the rest of my life with.
& i would be lying if i said, "no, i dont love fadzli anymore" because i still love and care for him.

so when i found out that he is now in love with somebody else, it hurts real bad.
true, i was the one who asked for the breaking up and i shouldnt be the one who is feeling like shit now that i found out he has moved on.
but i just cant believe that this is the same guy who told me that if i ever leave him, he will never love another again.
and now, barely a month after the break up, he is now in love with someone else.
plus he has already confessed to her of his feelings.

no,
i do not have hopes of us being back together again.
the feeling is just.... sucky, you know.
i want to know his secret of being able to move on so fast, to just forget about the 3yrs within less than a month.
& this situation also got me thinking why in the world he kept asking if there are new guys in my life or if there are guys who wants to get to know me. i reckon its because of this la.

ouh bummer.

so i am like telling averyone that i want to stay single for a year, at least.
that's the plan.
but if god has other plans for me, then we shall see.

reached home close to 2am. haha.
then flat on my bed, with contacts & all.
still can wake up this morning wondering how come everything seemed so clear. -_-

i am going to wash my clothes. bye!

Labels: fadzli, love, relationship, work

will be doing my blog linkings soon!
i promise.

i think now, the only time i can actually blog is during the weekend. because on weekdays, after work, most of the time i will just go flat. haha. no energy to even log into facebook sometimes. not even twitter. the only time i would tweet is via sgbeat. but then, i cant read any replies. bah.

not that i am complaining. haha. love my job.
its just that i need to focus more this coming week in order to see the results coming in. the last week i couldnt focus because i was super sick and too many things were running a marathon in my head.

and before i forget,
i want to congratulate 2 people with whom i attended the induction training for getting their respective stage 1 & stage 2 promotion, syaiful & zurah! congratulations ya!

Labels: promotion, rambling, work