*scheduled post

there's 2 parts in this entry.

the date.
i received a message about him wanting to meet the day after which was the 15th october 2006 right after i entered my room. to which i agreed to.
& that was our FIRST date.

we went by public & i did him a favor of picking him up at pasir ris mrt station. terbalik kan.
it was simply because, he is a noob. i think i said that in the previous part.
he rarely takes the public transport. kental kan.
i have a kental mat for a boyfriend. haha.

so i brought him to cityhall where we hang around at esplanade.
and we broke fast at makansutra.
haha. yes, i fasted on our first date.
tapi my buka was hainanese chicken rice from a chinese stall.
style or whattttt.

i already said i tak betol what.

after our buka, walked over to suntec where we sat at the macdees.
& played with my then laptop, which has since died 2 yrs ago.
and the rest of the date was spent there, with our respective drinks from maccafe & fries.
romantic kan? sungguh.

snapped a few pictures. & there was where we had our first few photos taken.

ended our date at about 10plus.
dropped him off at the mrt station while i continued my way home by bus.

the confession.
we didnt meet the 2days after our first date because he had to work but we made plans to meet on his first off day after my work.
so during those days, we kept in contact by smses and talking on the phone. constantly. it was one of the days when he asked me whether i have any feelings towards him. to which i replied, it was too early for me to have any confirmation of any feelings of love towards him. he was a dear friend and i love him as one. whether or not i love him more than a friend, that i dont dare to say because i am, myself, not sure of my feelings.
i had to be "politically correct" because he was afterall a legally married man then & i didnt want to lose his friendship.

when i asked him the same question, i think he was trying to be "politically correct" too but he did say he sayang me. haha.

spent the early part of our pre second date chatting with him on msn.
he told me to listen to "angel in the night" by lovehunters, which i didnt have the mp3 in my work desktop.
so he sent me the lyrics to the song instead.

what i am going to share here is something which was never shared before with anybody else this 3yrs of our rship.
the ones in bracket were my replies when he first sent me the lyrics & the ones in red were his replies to mine.

I wasn't dreaming (You aren’t dreaming) .. I know.
never felt like this before
you're my lover (I am not your lover, I am just a friend) …U sure??
wanna love you more (Of course you can) … thank u.
here I am baby
hoping you're by my side (I hope you’d want me to be by your side) .. of course I do.
you're my angel in the night

it's been so long
I've been trying to say (It took you just 3 days la) .. I know … but it feels so long.
and it seems you keep on walking away (I didn’t) .. well this is part of the song
oh girl cant u see u mean so much to me (No, I can’t. I just know you like me) .. yes u mean so much to me.
and I just cant hide this feeling anymore
this feeling anymore (You confessed already, right?) .. yes I did….

but can I tell you that I love you (You only told me you like me) .. dgr2 sayang tu maknanya bukan love ah …
can I tell you that I need you (You never told me this. And I don’t think you do) .. never did told u … but the feeling of needing u is arising.
for awhile you're here
and the moment you're gone (I never was gone) .. hopefully it stays dat way.
leaving just the teardrops in my eyes (I made you cry?) .. as I told u .. very the almost.
you're my angel in the night
angel

I need to hold you
never wanna let you go
cos if you love me baby pls don't go
here I am baby hoping you're by my side
here I am baby hoping you're by my side
you're my angel in the night

wahaha. we were officially so kental.

then we became official.
& that was on wednesday, 18th of october 2006 at approximately 5.17pm.

till next part. =)

xoxo.

ps.: i know this particular photo, his face like want to kena sepak like that, right?

Labels: fadzli, love, lovestory, the bf