wasnt working yesterday because i was down with a fever.
crap sia! wake up in the morning with such a bad migraine so had to message sandra and rena to inform them of my absence from office.
then, i realised that rena wont be in the office either so i should be messaging daniel instead. but by then, i was feeling too tired and sick to do that.
bah.

lesley woke me up from my slumber to ask if i was joining them for the vici team outing.
which i totally forgot about. omg. =(

feeling tad better, i did.
wrong move because after my nap, i felt my fever coming back. -_-"

reached cineleisure a lil late. sorry zaman!

the blind side was a very good movie.
i know i am sucha sucker for movies which are based on true stories.
but seriously, its a movie worth watching.
so many valuable lessons taught in the movie itself. just prep yourself tissues when watching it.
its the kind of movie i dont mind watching over and over again.

hang out for awhile outside cineleisure. snapping photos while some were busy inhaling nicotine into their lungs. haha!


dinner/supper was at bbq chicken after that with the team.
service super slow can!

there were talks of going karaoke after that.
but plans were changed afterwards due to lack of response. haha!
so shared a cab with mel & nezar. initial plan was to drop them off first but then we decided to drop by jalan kayu. =P

so through cups of tehs, we had conversations flowing.
about how long it took me to wake up & get out of a rship of 3yrs.
about how much i gave in just because i wanted to hang on to the rship & not fight for 3yrs.

truth be told,
no, i am not over the rship.
i cant possibly just forget about that 3yrs, even though it was not all rainbows & butterflies.
even so, i spent 3yrs of my life with someone whom i thought i will be spending the rest of my life with.
& i would be lying if i said, "no, i dont love fadzli anymore" because i still love and care for him.

so when i found out that he is now in love with somebody else, it hurts real bad.
true, i was the one who asked for the breaking up and i shouldnt be the one who is feeling like shit now that i found out he has moved on.
but i just cant believe that this is the same guy who told me that if i ever leave him, he will never love another again.
and now, barely a month after the break up, he is now in love with someone else.
plus he has already confessed to her of his feelings.

no,
i do not have hopes of us being back together again.
the feeling is just.... sucky, you know.
i want to know his secret of being able to move on so fast, to just forget about the 3yrs within less than a month.
& this situation also got me thinking why in the world he kept asking if there are new guys in my life or if there are guys who wants to get to know me. i reckon its because of this la.

ouh bummer.

so i am like telling averyone that i want to stay single for a year, at least.
that's the plan.
but if god has other plans for me, then we shall see.

reached home close to 2am. haha.
then flat on my bed, with contacts & all.
still can wake up this morning wondering how come everything seemed so clear. -_-

i am going to wash my clothes. bye!

Labels: fadzli, love, relationship, work