you know at some point of your life, you just feel so lost.
like everything's falling apart.
you dont know what to do, you dont know who to talk to.
you just keep everything within yourself because you're just, well, lost.
you cant even talk to your other half because you dont know where to start and because he/she is having their own problems.

so you just act like nothing's wrong, everything's fine for you.
you continue being there for other people, lending a listening ear & giving advises.
you smile, you laugh. you joke around.
when the fact is, in your heart & in your mind, its actually a wreck.
you just want to give everything up. but at the same time, you're strong enough not to.

it gets tiring that on nights you cant sleep & on days you're alone, you'll just cry.
& that's the exact reason why you choose to tire yourself so much so you will just end up sleeping the moment you lie down on your bed.

it get worst when people who matters are too blind to look beyond your eyes. because you know if they really looked, they would have known that something's wrong.
but they dont.

Labels: confession, heartfelt, rambling, random thoughts