dearest fadzli

i wish there's more i could do for you besides just being a listening ear & a shoulder for you to cry on. i wish i could understand certain things you tell me besides just acknowledging & nodding my head because i know nuts about those topics due to my almost zilch interest in it.

your dreams are so near to you now. somehow, i feel real bad for not being able to ease your monetary burden with regards to your bike. i know how much you want to race, & i know how irritated you were the first time i went to pasir gudang with you. the fact that you could only stand at the sideline watching the bikes zooming pass by when it could be you in the race too is very much frustrating.

the fact that due to some people's busybody-ness at work, your arrangements for you to achieve your dream is now on the line. i know its easy for me to tell you that all this that happened is a blessing in disguise but its not easy for you because you are the one who have to go through it. & now, you've to start all over again, back to square one.

frankly, i am pissed too, because indirectly, i've to get a gist of it from what you told me on the phone last night. we wont be able to have our short random dates after your morning shift. we wont be able to enjoy those days you'd be able to claim your off days due to extra duties.

but you know what? dont give up on your dreams just because of this one hurdle. you can make it, ok? i know that you're one strong person - physically & mentally. i know you'd be able to do it, you'd be able to work around it.

& i know we'd be able to make it, ok.

like i told you before,
its just us against the world.

i ♥ you, baby.

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